My skin trouble
Sunday, June 02, 20196/02/2019 04:14:00 am
god knows how struggle i am living my life with this skin condition of mine. to actually sabar dgn the struggle of my skin.....aku pun tak tau dah brp tahun aku think positive sbb semua org ckp mmg mcm ni nanti elok sendiri
it was so bad that i dont want to even posts any pictures yg bare faced, no filters, and no makeups. i dont favor buying stuff like i used to, go out, or even communicate with anyone. basically aku dah hilang harapan ahahah isn it funny to lose hope at these matter
aku tak igt dah perasaan post gmbr dkt ig, buat story pun filters. i bet akif mesti menyesal suka aku. he must think im not clean enough. i dont have a flawless skin. im not what he expected before. rasa nak bawa diri jauh jauh. to be honest i dont know. sbb makeup ke? kat uni pakai makeup. but i still use my makeup remover......its been brp sem and im tired
my cheeks sgtla teruk i consumed dr ko dulu n it was so many pills, everyday pills. i wasnt good enough to persuade my dad to buy it for me skrg. whats with buah pinggang the most important thing now is my self esteem my confidence. he said wait until i stop commit with the braces thingy. dahla i had always missed the braces appointment.....bila ya. i dont know he just dont understand.....
surrounded with people yg honest is a very painful thing to swallow do. makin kurus la, kau sakit ke kenapa cengkung, whats with your skin blablabla i might look strong tapi tak boleh ke some people learn about common sense.
what i learn about university life is
dont reveal yourself too much to your friends, bila drg tahu semua, they belittled you and they dont care about batas batas nak bercakap. if u know what i mean
ye korang. aku makin kurus cengkung ni sbb kulit aku. stop saying ko makin kurus ko making cengkung i know i looked ugly tapi dah dalam hati je komen
Rants
Friday, May 31, 20195/31/2019 11:30:00 pm
Quite a lot of people noticed me of being thinner........cengkung and whatnot. Kau tak sihat ke ha apa lagi name it! They said they could even seen my urat. I dont find it quite okay..for people to bluntly said out words like that even how friendly i might appeared?
I dont have the confidence. Kalaula boleh bagitahu semua orang. Aku bukannya nak closed door, tak nak bercakap, being peramah like i used to. It just my skin. My skin people. My skin.
It got back to when i was form 3. Back in those days my skin break outs like only god knows how bad i feel. And skrg i even scared on posting any photos, selfies or apa apa. I find it people mesti rasa how geli they are looking at me. Mesti diorang fikir i am not that clean. Im tired of curing my own skin. Kenapa bila dah heal, it cant be heal forever?
I hate myself for having a skin like this. I dont have self esteem now. Tak ada, confidence pun dah takda dont ask why tak upload gmbr blablabla. I dont have the guts to do so! Im ashamed of myself
Hair
5/31/2019 10:59:00 pm
Im into hair. I went to this one salon, they offered a japanese hair strengthening which was quite amazing. U see, selalunya my straight hair only tahan not more than a year. And this time, lama jugak it retained. About 1 year and a half, or more? That was quite affordable for a 150 worth hair straightening tau. U see bcs dulu waktu sekolah rendah kot i was so into hair, however, my hair is smooth wavy. I like it to be straight. Without thinking the future consqeuences, i bought a hair iron, yup at the carefour or something tak ingat. And i think bcs of that, the unproffesional nina, i ruined my own hair and my friend's hair. My hair gets very dry. I dont know it will get worsen. Tapi biasala bila dah mcm pelik, still i ironed the rambut to make it straight. I used it daily okay daily!!!!
And okay. Last last..............my hair got frizzy. Farah and Is' hair!!!!! I feel very depressed hence i stopped. And cut my hair short (like a boyish style). And it got even worsen!!!
Enough saying about my hair, ive still like it to have a straight hair hihihi sbb tula i still into straightening one. Ke nak buat perm one day? Or maybe not. Cant handle to ruin it again
